#这里有一些火星文#
他曾经爱过Seb吗？他觉得没有。如果当初的境况不同，他会不会爱上他？他们永远不会知道答案。每当Mark回想起那些错失的机会时，这件事不过是一闪而过的念头。而每当他想起Seb，脑海里浮现的总是各种蓝色——他们赛车服的深蓝，摩纳哥港海水的蔚蓝，以及他那双眼睛的湛蓝。他几乎从不想象Seb身穿红色的样子。

Did he ever love Seb? He doesn't think so. Could he have loved him if the circumstances had been different? They will never know. Whenever Mark reminisces about missed chances this one's only a fleeting thought. When he thinks of Seb it's in shades of blue - the dark blue of their race suits, the sea blue of the water in the Monaco harbour, the cerulean blue of his eyes. He rarely ever pictures him in red.

Seb就像一道陈年的旧伤。一道已经愈合的伤口，一道偶尔仍会隐隐作痛的疤痕。Mark早已学会与它共存。而如今，并非出于他的过错，他却再次被卷入一场无法逃离的风暴之中，被困在其中，无路可退。他可以把过去抛在身后，对它视而不见，但过去终究会追上他，只是时间早晚的问题。

Seb is like an old injury too, a closed wound, a scar that troubles him from time to time. Mark's learned to live with it. Through no fault of his own he's now in the middle of a storm he cannot escape, trapped here with no way out. He can leave his past behind, ignore it, but it will catch up, one way or the other.

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