问问用英文写的一篇笔记，我也用AI翻译了中文版在后面。

Lessons From the Squash Court

I've been playing squash since I was eight.
Before squash, I did swimming for several years, but I eventually quit.
Swimming felt repetitive to me. Once you dive into the lane, you simply repeat the same movement again and again.
Squash was different.
Every shot required a decision.
Even though you only have a split second to react, you still get to choose how to play the point.
I loved that feeling.
As an athlete, I wasn't the fastest or the strongest player on court, but I enjoyed the strategic side of the game and the challenge of figuring things out under pressure.

One of the most memorable matches of my life happened in Japan.
At the time, I was one of the top players in my age group in China, and I was competing against the number one player in Japan.
I was leading 2-0.
Everything seemed under control.
Then something changed.
The crowd was supporting her. We were playing on her home court. I became aware of who she was instead of focusing on my own game.
Slowly, I lost momentum.
She won the next three games.
I lost the match 3-2. The final game ended 16-14.
Afterward, I sat in the corner of the venue and cried for almost thirty minutes. At the time, I couldn't understand how I had lost a match that I was so close to winning.

Looking back now, I don't think I lost because my opponent was better.
I think I lost because I stopped trusting myself.
I became focused on the crowd, the rankings, and everything happening around me.
I forgot to focus on my own game.
That lesson followed me into many tournaments afterward.
I've experienced difficult losses, unfriendly competitors, criticism from other players and even parents on the sidelines. There were times when I doubted myself and cared too much about what other people thought.
But squash taught me something important:
You cannot control other people's opinions.
You can only control how you respond to them.

Today, when I compete, I still care deeply about winning.
I still get emotional after losses.
But I recover much faster than I used to.
Instead of focusing on rankings, crowds, or outside noise, I focus on my preparation, my mindset, and the next point.
One of the biggest changes squash has brought to my life is confidence.
Not the confidence that comes from always winning.
The confidence that comes from knowing who I am, even when things don't go my way.
That's a lesson I carry with me both on and off the court.

壁球场教会我的事

我从八岁开始打壁球。
接触壁球之前，我练了好几年游泳，最后选择放弃了游泳。
游泳对我来说太过单调重复。一旦跃入泳道，只是一遍又一遍重复相同的动作。

但壁球截然不同。
每一次击球都需要做出判断抉择。
哪怕只有转瞬即逝的反应时间，你依然可以自主选择这一分要如何去打。
我很喜欢这种感觉。

作为运动员，我在场上不算速度最快、力量最强的选手，但我热爱这项运动的策略性，享受在压力之下思索破局的挑战。

我人生里印象最深的一场比赛发生在日本。
彼时我已是国内同年龄段顶尖选手之一，那场赛事我对阵日本同龄排名第一的选手。

开局我大比分2:0领先，
整场局势看似尽在掌控之中。

然而变故悄然发生。
赛场观众全都在偏向支持她，这是她的主场。我开始过度在意对手的状态，渐渐没法专注打好自己的比赛节奏。

后面，我的状态一路下滑。

接下来三局，她悉数取胜。

最终我以2比3输掉整场比赛，决胜局比分定格在14比16。

赛后，我坐在赛场角落，默默哭了将近半小时。当时我百思不解，明明胜利近在咫尺，自己为何最终落败。

如今回头看，我明白输掉比赛并非因为对手实力更强。

真正原因是我不再相信自己。

我分心在意赛场观众、排名名次，被周遭种种杂念裹挟。

彻底忘了专心打好自己的球。

这次教训在此后的多场赛事里一直警醒着我。

往后我经历过多次遗憾落败、遇上态度刻薄的对手，也遭到其他选手乃至场边家长的非议。不少时刻我陷入自我怀疑，过分在意旁人的看法评价。

但壁球教会了我至关重要的道理：
你无法掌控别人的看法，
唯一能掌控的，是自己面对事物的态度与选择。

如今参赛时，我依旧十分看重输赢，落败后也难免心绪起伏，但调整恢复的速度早已比从前快了很多。

我不再纠结排名、观众反响与外界纷扰，而是专注自身准备、心态状态，打好接下来每一分球。

壁球带给我人生最大的改变之一，是塑造了底气与自信。
这份自信，并非来源于常胜不败；
而是即便事与愿违、身处逆境，依然清楚认清自我、笃定本心。

赛场内外，这份感悟始终指引着我。