but the closest emotion I have for a 星 like that is Maya Karli (after Lana Del Rey). 我在自己的live也cover过她的歌，there was a phase I listen to her line by line on repeat and let it erode my spirit. 昨天带着信和礼物去(时隔三年)看她的时候，我不知道怎么面对她，不知道怎么和她说话，就一直坐在角落里; eurus到了叫我太紧张的话就和她先出去吃泰国小零食，我前脚走出去后脚maya叫住我 and I swear to god this scene was in slow mo and is just as good as any 文艺逼电影: 我在狭窄的黑的楼梯间回头，我的偶像逆光站在光里，我哭得大脑一片空白，舞台上如此有力量的人抱起来是这么小这么薄的一片