我草我不敢相信刚看完的二十万英文字的spirk masterpiece has no smut in it what the fuck not even a tiny little bit like completely T or G rated (except for some E rated trigger warnings) what in the actual hell is going on I want to see the steamy raunchy sex when the sexual tension is soooooooo intense through the whole last chapter I need to see them do it in the end this is so sexually frustrating but apart from all my libido talking this is soooooooooo exquisitely written the whole structure whole plot the theme and the constant revisite of the theme and the smooth and captivating style of writing and so much so on I can’t even begin to articulate my admiration and thrill and oh my god I want more more more of this beautiful piece of art which has become my version of the backstory for aos kirk and oh have I forgotten to mention that the extremely precise and absolutely spot on portrayal of the characters not even in the slightest out of character oh by heaven and earth I will engrave this on my grave