#naokirossi[超话]##naokirossi#
I still can’t accept that you’re gone from this world. I simply cannot accept that you are no longer in this world with us. Please tell me you’re joking or pranking me. You, as my best friend, can’t just leave me behind like that. I need you and will keep needing you, Gian. We literally just met recently, before the incident, talking about what we’re going to do after you get out of that gloomy place and go skating together and visiting Japan together one day. Why didn’t you call me nor texted me like you kept telling me to do..?You told me that day I shouldn’t be doing any crap nor any dumb stuff but you ended up doing it yourself. I’m not mad I’m just extremely devastated and just completely exhausted. Gian you truly deserve better, Gian. I love you so freaking much. I can’t bring myself to rest in peace yet..I’m just not ready yet to accept you’re gone, Gian.

We lost you suddenly before we even realized that the stars in your eyes had faded like misplaced flames in the darkness. Your laughter’s sounds, which had formerly been loud and lively, became quiet, like wind-blown whispers. You know, just like a ripped tapestry, the stitches holding your spirit together came loose and loose, just getting weaker and weaker. And just like that, part of the world’s brightness disappeared with your light, where it disappeared into the unknown. Not gonna lie you were merely a fleeting comet that sped into our existence and just left a bright trail behind. The echoes of your laughter continues to fill the voids you left behind as well. Vibrant, lively memories of you creep into every single nook and cranny of my brain cells. The illness won over you and you, yourself decided that the darkness was too much for you to bear, so you ended your own life. Where in real life you were fooled by the darkness. On the same day that you made that awful decision, we saw each other and met together. It seemed as if the universe had granted me a brief chance to get to know your soul before it was taken. (have more to write but can’t type it all here, so I’ll continue on the second post. ⬇️ #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters