《离开纽约的理由》Why I No Longer Live In New York

离开纽约前，读到了Joan Didion这篇几十年前写的文章。她当时从加州搬到了纽约，生活七年后又离开——因为有相似的生活路径，完全被她的文字击中，于是读了些片段，录了下来，以此留念。

I was in love with New York. I do not mean "love" in any colloquial way, I mean that I was in love with the city, the way you love the first person who ever touches you and never love anyone quite that way again.

That was the year, my twenty- eighth, when I was discovering that not all of the promises would be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted after all, every evasion and every procrastination, every mistake, every word, all of it.

It was three years ago that... we have lived in Los Angeles since. Many of the people we knew in New York think this a curious aberration, and in fact tell us so. There is no possible, no adequate answer to that, and so we give certain stock answers, the answers everyone gives. I talk about how difficult it would be for us to "afford" to live in New York right now, about how much "space" we need.

All I mean is that I was very young in New York, and that at some point the golden rhythm was broken, and I am not that young any more. http://t.cn/A6HQD7IX