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24-06-01 13:25

我在酒窖里没花多长时间就找到那瓶要找的葡萄酒,并为把酒端给客人做好了必要的准备工作。如此,就在我跟肯顿小姐短暂邂逅之后不过几分钟的时间,我就再次沿着同样那条走廊往回走了,这次是用托盘端着那瓶酒。当我走近肯顿小姐的房门时,我从门框的缝隙中透出的灯光知道她还在里面。而就是那一刻——我现在可以肯定了——这些年来一直牢牢地铭刻在了我的记忆当中:就是那一刻,我在黑暗的走廊中停下脚步,手里端着托盘,内心深处涌起一种越来越肯定的感觉,就在几码开外、房门的另一侧,肯顿小姐正在哭泣。据我的记忆所及,我的这种确信并没有任何确凿的证据可以证实——我当然也并没有听到任何的哭泣声——然而我记得当时我非常肯定,如果我敲门进去的话,一定会发现她正满面泪痕。我不知道我在那儿站立了多久;当时的感觉似乎很久很久,可事实上我想也只不过几秒钟罢了。因为,当然了,我的职责是赶快回到楼上去为国内那几位至尊至贵的绅士上酒,我认为自己是不可能耽搁太久的。

It did not take me long to locate the bottle in question down in the cellar and to make the necessary preparations for its serving. It was, then, only a few minutes after my short encounter with Miss Kenton that I found myself walking down the corridor again on my return journey, this time bearing a tray. As I approached Miss Kenton's door, I saw from the light seeping around its edges that she was still within. And that was the moment, I am now sure, that has remained so persistently lodged in my memory - that moment as I paused in the dimness of the corridor, the tray in my hands, an ever-growing conviction mounting within me that just a few yards away, on the other side of that door, Miss Kenton was at the moment crying. As I recall, there was no real evidence to account for this conviction - I had certainly not heard any sounds of crying - and yet I remember being quite certain that were I to knock and enter, I would discover her in tears. I do not know how long I remained standing there; at the time it seemed a significant period, but in reality, I suspect, it was only a matter of a few seconds. For, of course, I was required to hurry upstairs to serve some of the most distinguished gentlemen of the land and I cannot imagine I would have delayed unduly.

石黑一雄(Kazuo Ishiguro)
《长日将尽》(The Remains of the Day)
译者:冯涛|上海译文出版社,2019.04

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