“可卡因曾让我觉得自己不可一世,觉得我总是对的。我打过很多人,还骗老婆,感觉自己有了超能力。我的毒瘾深藏不露,没人知道我在吸毒,直到我出问题。当时我熬夜嗑可卡因,连着三天,然后确信电视在对我说话。我试图闯进巴西最大的电视台的前门,叫喊着我是耶稣。他们把我放到一个诊所,待了18天。那是三年前的事了。我不介意谈起它,挺尴尬的,但它发生了。它让我戒毒了。虽然挺丢人的,但也是因为它,我才能坐在这张长椅上,平静、放松,不再想着毒品。”
(圣保罗,巴西)
“The cocaine made me feel important. I thought I was always right. I was fighting a lot of people. I was cheating on my wife. I felt like I had superpowers. I was hiding my addiction from everybody. Nobody knew I was using until I had a breakdown. I stayed up doing coke for three days, and became convinced that the television was speaking to me. I tried to get through the front door of the largest television station in Brazil-- screaming that I was Jesus. They put me in a clinic for eighteen days. That was three years ago. I don’t mind talking about it. I’m embarrassed by it, but it happened. And it caused me to get clean. It was humiliating, but it’s also the reason I’m able to sit on this bench-- calm, relaxed, and not thinking about drugs.”
(São Paulo, Brazil)
